It was in the month of March when the college announced holidays because of the lockdown. In that crux of time, I was undoubtedly the happiest person alive as I didn't have to get up early for my morning college.
Initially, things were moving along perfectly; but suddenly after a couple of months my brain started getting frustrated and exasperated by the past incidents of my life. The time when I used to get totally distorted and shattered. Somehow I was managing my life. But those past incidents kept pinning me every time and depression reached it's utmost zenith.
I decided that I should seek help because if this continues, then I am surely going to lose my life. I shared my heart out to my sister- cried, shouted, talked whatever that was inside my head. After that I actually felt delighted and joyful and I gained the bravery to let my heart out. Problems are a part of life and depression is serious, it is advised to share your problems with your dear ones.
Then I started my journey of self realization resumed my obsession of reading novels, started learning guitar. I was on the verge of completing my transformation and suddenly I come across the news of Sushant Singh Rajput's death. For a couple of days I was extremely numb and I left social media because those constant posts were disrupting me. I thought that I was on the verge of depression just a few days ago and now I couldn't resist this loss.
Whatever the trouble might be, suicide is never a solution. Then the stages of self realization continued. I learnt many online courses and then got a motivation in my mind to open my own quotes page and let my heart out and heal people so I initiated it.
Now I have become a person that I could have never imagined. The instigation of this miraculous change was somehow desolate and devastating but also the continuation of stupendous and divined. It is said that if we need to move forward then we have to take some steps backward ,just in the case of a bow and arrow. Now I have become a person, I had never imagined in my life to be. This positive thing was actually beneficial for me in 2020.