Winning the Lockdown Blues

Picture of Kavita Shreshtha


The body that I am in never knew to pause
keeping aside the few golden hours of sleep.
Even then it would have a bustling brain
brimming tangled emotions and
language of beep.
But right now since that last beautiful
stroll I had around the alleys of busy city,
suddenly half of the globe went on hibernation.
An ultramicroscopic invisible particle and it pushed the unstoppable humans inside their huts and mansions.
No traffic on the road but the traffic overloaded with thoughts, some real more illusions could not stop in my mind. 
And while dropping kindness around me I forgot to show some to myself, instead became unkind.
There were people kept in isolations fighting with the disease 
Here I was keeping the love I needed in quarantine   with hopes all cease
Dark room was never my favourite, I wonder how I let my mind be so dark.
Maybe I became so occupied by my broken dreams and failures that I lost my spark.
Still in some corner and spaces between my cells were left some courage
After the battle within my own body, one dusky evening I felt the undying soul of me was giving an intense gaze
I felt I was entangled on my own thoughts all not necessary and worthless
Was destroying the beautiful heart amidst this pandemic mess
Sometimes just a little glimmer of light is enough to ignite a fire 
I realized I could shine again if I have that desire
I broke up with overthinking and found my love in between the pages 
Read many and spilled in words all my voices locked down since ages.
Stories and poetries turned to my magic wand
With a sip of little caffeine through coffee on my hand 
I started blooming with every sunrise like a morning glory 
And looked for the brighter side on every story
I started painting my aspirations with every sunset  just as it would paint the sky
I collected the bits of me as I faced and win over every lie 
Every lie that my wounded mind would tell me 
Every assumptions I took and fear I will be .
I drowned in misery but I learned to swim to the bay of happiness
I recognized my flaws but I also learned to fix it and decorate my life 
This pandemic gave me a hard time to deal with
But I loved myself enough to break the myth
The myth about people who needed others to fight their war
The truth is you are your own superhero and only you can keep your worries afar.
Dhairya Mehta

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