"Just remember: I am here.
Right now, you may not wanna feel anything,
Maybe you never wanted to feel anything,
But feel something you obviously did.
Look, you had a beautiful friendship, maybe more than a friendship and I envy you.
In my place, most parents would hope the whole thing goes away. Pray for their sons to land in their feet but I am not such a parent.
We Rip out so much of ourselves to be cured of things faster,
That we go bankrupt by the age of 30.
And have less to offer, each time we start with someone new.
But make yourself feel nothing,
So as not to feel anything
What a waste.
I may have come close
But I never had what you two have.
Something always held me back
Or stood in the way
How you live your life is your business.
Just remember, our hearts and our bodies are given to us only once,
And before you know it your hearts worn out.
And as for your body, there comes a point when no one looks at it, much less wants to come near.
Right now, there's sorrow, pain.
Don't kill it and with it the joy you felt.
Does mom know?
I don't think she does. "
These lines touched my heart. So considerate of him.
After watching this scene, I had an epiphany about my dad, realising that it has been two months now, since I have met him.
He went to Patna, in the third week of March after hearing the news of my grandfather's serious health condition. Dadu was admitted to the hospital and was there till 1 St of April. My dad was with him until he was discharged. He was accompanied by my Badi mummy and Bhaiya.
At that time the country was under serious lockdown, so vehicles weren't allowed on the roads and my family had to cover a 5-hour trip to reach home( grandfathers place). So they booked the ambulance from the very same hospital as nobody would have stopped an ambulance( smart people 😂).
Now it has been two months since I have met my dad, and I really miss him.
It's funny right, earlier on a normal day, the maximum conversation I have had with my dad was mostly one-liner or maybe two. Okay, more than that but definitely not a one-hour conversation in a single stretch. In this lockdown, we have talked so much on video calls than we have talked in our entire life. Every single day we( me, Mumma and my sister)have called him and he has narrated his entire day, bragging about all the great things he has done with his intelligent brain and we, as usual, laughing and praising him for his greatness.
I never thought that I could reach this level of comfort with my dad but this lockdown made it possible.
He is a great person, and I know sometimes we run out topics for conversion and remain silent for hours being in the same room, but now I think, things will be different. Because now, I will take responsibility for the first hour of the conversation. And after the first, if we again get back to silence, then this will be on him, as I have improved a lot during the lockdown. Hahaha...
I remember the saying goes like this, " you only realize the importance of someone when they are far away from you". Something exactly like this happened to me in this lockdown.
Now that the government has allowed air travelling, I have booked my dads tickets from Patna to Hyderabad on 26th of May, which is also my sisters birthday. What a beautiful day for a family to reunite. I am eagerly waiting for him.
Love you, dad!
