Flickering lights
I've had a few sleepless nights
Thinking if today is the day
Worrying if you have lost your way
I know I said I won't call
I know, even if I do, you won't stall
But what would I say
Should I ask, how was your day?
We may even talk, for like 10 mins or so
But how will I ever let go
Of the fact that you aren't there next to me
Or that you'll soon ask, who is she?
The fact that we're miles apart
The fact, that you don't remember us playing darts
Do you at least remember us at the lakeside?
Or the day, you asked me to be your bride
But how can I ever forget
That one last bet,
When the doctors gave up on us
You took my hand and said, "what you're worrying about, we still got years left."
Ages have passed since then
Or so it seems
I've managed to get over you and my griefs
Look how far we've both come
Look at me, buying presents for our little one.
But the past few days have been somewhat strange
Her curiosity has left me deranged
But today her question stopped me halfway
When she asked, will daddy be there for my birthday?
Where would I even start?
Telling her why we're apart?
Will she even fathom what dementia is
Or will the truth break her fragile heart?